Death has never been a topic in my conversations or thoughts before. However once, the turbulence of the airplane was so bad that the fear of dying appeared. Thoughts such as I have not done my will, I have not visited Nepal, I have not done this, I have not done that... just flew to my head. I have not achieved much and i did not want to die. I promised myself that I will achieve more and prepare better if the plane landed safely. After landing smoothly, I still did not do much and deceived myself that I will get to them soon..(or maybe not).
Last year, I have experienced three deaths in my family - two aunties whom were very dear to me (one whom I viewed as my second mother) and one distant uncle. Both aunties were just gone overnight, without any notice. These deaths have make me rethink of my relationship with my mum.
I think my mum is V, B,G,Y but currently all out of power. She has had a tough life. My dad died more than 20 years ago. She was a young widow. Had to support 5 children. She never remarried for fear that a stepfather will not treat us well. It would be an easier way out... But she did not succumb to the challenges. I admire her courage to step into the workforce and her determination to ensure we have the proper education. She also has a compassionate, giving and loving nature.
As she ensured that I have the best education possible, I know that I have to do the same. The greatest gift to her would be enrolling her in CV - to ensure the remaining years to be filled with joy, abundance and love. I am sending this intention today....I LOVE YOU MUM
There is a chinese song which goes something like this.. "in this world mum is the best. Those with mum are like precious gems. Those without mum are like grasses, roaming in the wilderness, without a home, no mother's cuddles & love.."
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